The place where It all started....

(Mediator was added on to the show)

When sitting down to write these posts, My fingers and mind start race, competing against each other more so than actually syncing, and that's when my heart bleeds out.
Usually my heart isn't easily seen, or "worn on my sleeve" But when it comes to writing, It's different, A view into my mind, And my heart, People hardly ever see. Pieces of me fall out. Pieces of me that never get replaced, Or refilled. It's exhausting,
To try and Capture moments I some times can't even remember very well.

I'm not easily edited, And my blog takes a certain taste, or person to be likable. And that's okay, Because it's mine. And it's me. You, As the reader, Hop into my head and get to experience the night as if you were there. And as if you were me. Not that you'd ever want to be. I mean who want's to be an awkward shy kid that hides behind the people who have accepted her, and speaks mostly only when spoken to. Well In this case, You're in for a surprise.
 For the first time this night, I wasn't that person. I was Cheyenne, Confident, Carefree, Happy, Reaching out to anyone and everyone that I could sense a connection with.
Which turned into talking to anyone who would listen,Or who would engage themselves in conversations with me.
 No stuttering, Over thinking, Pauses, Word vomit, Just me... Perfectly interacting as if I had never stopped being the girl who could who light up the room, And be friends with anyone and everyone....?

I didn't realize what I was doing,  Or that I was even doing it until Tim,
The front man of The Knowing Within
 (If you aren't aware of this yet) Asked me (and Merissa) to bring people in to watch their set. I looked at him like he was crazy, Despite knowing that he knew what I was capable of, Even if I didn't. I walked in and out of the bar part of bombshells at least five times before ever actually talking to anyone. And go figure, The first people I approached were in the band playing next, And couldn't care less, And the second..... Worked there.
(He was very cool about it though and I enjoyed my time with him through out the night.) I walked back into the "venue" side, At the very first sound of the knowing within.
 defeated, feeling like I had let them down. But to my surprise, Something kind of eye opening and miraculous happened. There was quite the crowd. And it most likely wasn't because of us, But we did add to it. Which boosted my confidence and energy levels. I wish more of them stayed for the finale two bands.

Once again I hardly picked up my camera. But it wasn't due to shooting anxiety this time around.(Okay, yes yes it was but at the same time it wasn't, Make sense? No okay.)
 It was because I was perfectly content throwing down. I was feeding off of everyone's energy, And it felt really good to let loose and not only be content with being who I am, But with making a fool out of myself in front of a bunch of people. Hahah what a basic bitch of me huh? Whatever, It was totes worth it bruh.
 I take note of a lot of things the dudes do, But watching them not behind a lens is so much different. I processed things I had never noticed before, Because once in the shooting state of mind nothing else matters but the shots. Where as this time, Nothing mattered but the moment. It was freeing, And pressure free.
 And although I WILL NEVER STOP SHOOTING, Writing now feels like what's important.
And yes, I did kick myself a lot after for not shooting, Because in the back of my mind I kept hearing "theres a shot, and another, and another".....

Anyways, let's get to the other bands shall we?

Mediator  coming from NC, kick started the night and was not at all what I was expecting by the looks and actions of themselves off stage. this being, Not at all a bad thing, Was just kind of a surprise that they were heavy, and pleasingly lyrical. At least to me, As a person of faith who struggles to find common grounds with bands that can sing about God. You really wouldn't expect something like this to come from these guys, Not sound wise at least. And although I talked to them a bit, I failed to ask about where all of this came from. But to put it simply, I was entranced.
Their sound is raw, ruff, and emotional. And I'm a big fan of that. They had a kick butt merch table, With an old suitcase filled with a great mix of  different band tees for $5 I've never seen or heard of that before, but it was unique and an idea I wish I had thought of. / could get more bands to do.
But then again I'm a total sucker for thrifty old things, When others may cringe at the thought of something like that. Last but definitely not least, Aj the guitarist was in a leg brace.... He played like a trooper, sitting down. Which You could tell pained him to do, When you have a fire burning passion inside of you it's hard to accept giving up. And he sure as heck didn't. He even hopped in the pit during one of the other bands, Crutches and all. He accidentally hit someone with them, And it was super punk rock. It's kind of sad that a few of us caught ourselves saying
 "damn I wish it would've been me"  Because that would've been a pretty dope story am I right?
 And he took a few photos for us! They're my new favorite. <3
(will add below)

One day I simply must see them again to talk about the struggles, and writing process that had to of happened to create this band. But not just for that, I yearn to get to know them as people.  Which I don't say often. They're dudes in the music industry I'd see myself being friends with. And again, To my surprise, I can say that about almost every band member that was there.
 Such a pleasure getting to meet passionate, friendly, bands that truly enjoy every aspect of  the life style. It's not always only the stage that matters, The fans are a big part of every band.
And they (all) seemed to understand that.

 A lot like the knowing within, These guys are faithful, acknowledge the struggles, And let it out, But add the bright side to it. Or at least goes to show you there's a light at the end of the tunnel, and helping hands willing to get you through the storms. God is always there for you in the dark times, Even the bad things happen for a reason, You just have to push through the struggle and stick with believing.
He can help get you through anything, At least that's how I tend to see it. And if  you don't that's cool too.Heavy stuff I know, Almost literally haha. So if you're into this kind of thing, Or if you are open minded and open to new things take the time to give em a like, and listen!

Beggars was pretty darn punk rock. Like a mix between the front bottoms and someone heavier.
Their singer was chill af with pink hair, And a tie-dye cat tee!~  One sentence, dats all I've got. Sigh


*Skips talking about bands because I suck oops* Sorry, Although I vaguely mentioned beggars I didn't invest enough into them, Or the other bands to be able to truthfully write about them. Don't get me wrong though, They were good too. Great even.

But erm Anyways,

~Hops to motion theater ~

Alright Stick with me here on this, Are you still reading!? Yes!? Okay,
Listen, I'm wearing thin, I'm burning out, We all get weak, We all need breaks, And despite not doing much else in life, Blogging has taken it's toll on me. And I had another night where I wasn't planning on writing, But someone stepped in and said all of the right things to keep me going, When despite my love of what I do, Wanted nothing more lately, Than to give up on what means the most to me. But here I am. Still standing. Because everything happens for a reason. And Life can be a bitch, But I'm making it my bitch. I was letting the thing I love most, Become just another thing to hate.
And I refuse to let the world break me.

Carrying on, moment being,
Motion theater had an amazing presence and performance despite playing to a pretty lame crowd.
I wasn't the biggest fan of them before hand, But I sure as heck am now. They reminded me a lot of mayday parade, Or maybe things about Greg just made me think of Derek Sanders , Like northern version of them/Him. That didn't stop them from having that sweet southern charm about them though.
 Apparently  it was my job of the night to get in their way A LOT.
 Always unintentionally of course. But me being well me, Tends to lose sight of the things around her and when they were setting up and taking down I crossed paths with them one or maybe even two many times oops. But they didn't seem to mind. Through out the night I talked and hung out with them all a lot, Without even knowing which band they were in. Kind of cool how that works out huh? To spend the night un knowingly talking to the "head liners" of the night is pretty crazy. Once they pop on stage and you realize who you were talking to.
 We interacted a bit all night, But It wasn't until the very end  when I really got a sense of them and who they are.

Guys like them keep me going, They make all the bad days, and people I experience worth it.
I shouted out a comment to Greg, on the way to my car. About how great he was, And how much I appreciated everything he does,That ended in a lengthy conversation I couldn't make up, dream up, or forget.
He read me like an open book before I could even tell him my name, Or express how right he was. he had such a charm about him, And It was one of those situations where you oddly feel like you've known someone all your life, Even though you know nothing about them.... Not yet at least!

I hugged him, And the rest of the band a million times. They feel like friends now. I'd thank them, And they'd thank me right back. Same with compliments!  I wish I could have spoken more with them, And helped them out more. I swear I Would have, If  I didn't have a freaking teeth cleaning at 8am, And parents already asleep I'd have brought them home with me, To rest up before hitting their next stop in Jacksonville. ( Side note mentioned this to my mom and she was like..... "They would've just slept, You'd be back before they'd notice you were gone" Sigh, Should have just chanced it)
This night was not only inspiring to me on many levels, But connecting and humanizing.
 And I honestly believe These dudes meet me's every night. Not exactly, but you get the gist.
And they'll treat them the same ways.We need more of that in the scene. There's not nearly enough truly appreciative and loving people in the world itself, Let alone in the music industry.
So for me this night was a change of pace, On manay different levels.
 Despite all of the great people I've already been meeting this year, I'd have to say these are my favorite so far. And I'm already patiently awaiting their return.

I dragged my feet to the car, And sat there for awhile before getting myself to drive. Part of this was due to having to say goodbye to one of the only people who makes me feel at home within myself, and part of it was not wanting the night to end. I just didn't want to go back to being alone. I never had problems with that, Until I found sides of myself I thought i'd never see again. Brought out of me by the people I try my best surround myself with. And  do so as much as possible. For once In my life I not only feel wanted, But loved. I mention these things a lot, But if you lived in a head and life like mine you'd understand. And you know what!?
Maybe you do.

Nights like this feel like dreams to a kid like me. Someone just might have to interfere one of these days to pinch me just to make sure. Back Tracking to the beginning of the night. The venue, Bombshells as stated waaaaaaaay back in older posts, Isn't in the best of locations, And
I WAS STARVING, Once I realized no one I knew was there yet, I even went on a hunt for food but couldn't find anything. Kind of threw in the towel without even trying though.
Luckily for me, I wasn't the only one. And a scary decision was made to test out the Mexican place next door. Best decision ever basically. It will probably be a bombshells tradition now. Not only good and authentic, But pretty cheap too. I'm loving this whole be spontaneous thang my life has going on lately. I'm more inclined to do these type of things when others are. And for once, I have people that like the same kinds of things, And I can trust enough to be talked into trying new places, people, and  things.

HunnyBunbunbun. Merissa~ 

Greg!

blurry is cool sometimes

AJ from mediator

first time ever trying one of these, and it was magic, Kinda tasted like a beach-y summer-y beverage without the alcohol 

MangoMadness.~ first time every hitting up Jeremiahs, As part of my adventure day in winter park. Also made my first trip to wawa.... Don't understand the hype about it.

This is my family. I found it all on my own. It's little, and broken, but still good. Yeah, still good.

Ohana means family.
Family means nobody gets left behind, or forgotten. h geart emoticon  

Give or take a few, they are and always will be family to me. 

"Through the eyes of a fan" Blah Blah Blah....

Accidental, and too attached not to add??

yah we selfied, With flash, In the middle of a set, with people behind us.
I regret nothing. Double chin for duh win

also part of my winter park adventure

I just..... Really dig blurry photos 

Like life, Sometimes things must fade before they can bloom again. 

duckface knuckle punch rardon??? 

pretty sure that's his attempt at a heart. 

Bombshells is where I saw The knowing within for the first time, A little less than six months ago. And I cannot believe how far I've come in such the short amount of time since they've been in my life. I'm a very nostalgic person, That's very easily reminded of where I once was, And It happens quite often. But this kind of felt like a milestone for me.

A step in the right directions, On this
(path of my calling)....... Wait for it

Because I (believe to see), (An untold story), Is un veiling itself, because there is always 

 (hope for the despaired), to become someone who is (forever radiant.) This my friends Is merely a (diary for the broken), Stick around or you'll be making (such a sad mistake)..... 

BOOM. wow did I really just go there? ew. Sorry for being so lame. ~Chyster 

Actually I've decided I'm not quite done yet, I made this all about me and my journey, What about The Knowing Within's!? I nuzzled myself into this family at the right time. I've watched them grow, Just as I have seen within myself and my life. They've found their groove, They've started making more of an impact in the scene, Kinks have been worked out, Their sound is so different from what I once knew. And each and every performance is better than the one before. They've added more back up vocals. And have slowly taken things in a heavier direction and It works well for them. It's at a point where if they change something I'm aware of it, And have the hey wait a minute, I was not aware of this! Reactions. (Not that I should be aware haha)  I might not be an actual part of the band, But I've found my place with them. The more I see them. The more I want to,
 And the more I seem to. Only time will tell where we'll all end up one day.
Nevertheless, I have faith that things will work out how they should.