This weekend is full of things to keep to myself, But i also have that if i don't write about it and photograph it i'll forget it all one day.... I need to get over this mentality. Because in reality it keeps me from enjoying the moment. I spent my weekend focusing on photos and how to write about it all that when it finally came time to write... I had nothing.
Nothing comes out but spurs of memories and moments from my weekend. Welcome to RockVille was so great. I am so happy to have survived it. Believe me it was brutal and i caught myself thinking if this is anything like hell, it might not be such a bad place to end up after all. The sun and heat was deadly. And the crowds were insane. But the bands oh they were so worth it. Although my dad tended to ruin the bigger bands for me by talking..... It was still such a breathtaking moment to see bands I've been listening to since i can remember. I actually wanted to cry because i was so mad Rob zombie didn't play dragula But he came back out and ended it with it. Which was just so aaaaahhh. I felt so infinite this weekend i'm having troubles being able to sum it all up into words.
I also cried during stained AGAIN, But this time because i've come so far since the first time i saw them. I'm not that selfish sad naive girl anymore. And I never ever want to see her again. She wasn't me. She was just lost and bands pulled her out of it. Honestly they did. I cried back then, I cried this weekend and i'll probably cry thinking about it if i ever see them again. It's just I can't say enough how grateful i am for my life. Or how far i've come, And how great this year has been for me..... gonna stop there.
I met some great people, Half of which i didn't even catch the names of. And the odds of ever seeing them again aren't in our favor. Which is fine. Although i wouldn't mind seeing them again. I was talkative and happy. I'm starting to feel alive. Starting to feel like a different person. Or as if the older me i thought i'd never be again is coming back. Music is what is keeping me alive. The amounts of people surrounding me, The feelings, the sounds, the pains, the feeling when you're so dead and lifeless but the band comes on and in a second you feel nothing but the energy and happiness of everyone around you. The pain slips away and you're energetic and screaming at the top of your lungs. I Stay alive for those feelings. By the time korn came on the second day my feet felt like i was walking on needles, my skin was stinging all over and i felt like passing out multiple times that day.... But as i stood there i gave them all i had left in me. Even if i was in the back. Even with my dad talking in my ear. Even with my best friend sitting down not caring at all. I wouldn't change it. I wish the feeling could be bottled up and saved for those melancholy days where i'm laying in bed wishing for sleep or for when i'm so annoyed with everyone around me.
Honestly the best part of the weekend was probably the ending.
But an ending truly is just another beginning. The radio was blasting, So loud you could feel it in your bones.
I couldn't even care how dead i felt, or that my head was pounding. Or that traffic was horrible. Or that we were that loud car everyone including me always hates.
I sang anyway. I remember driving over the blue bridge wishing i could stand up sticking my arms and head out of the roof of the car.
I felt like my favorite book character Charlie from the perks of being a wall flower. I saw myself as him.
And for a moment i swore i knew how he felt when he said "I feel infinite".....
Where I belong
Wednesday, April 30, 2014
Tuesday, April 8, 2014
Universal, Skillet, Religion,And friend hangs~
Over the weekend my concert /universal buddy (Angie) and I attended universal's mardigas to see the parade and skillet.
We had great spots for the parade and caught more beads than expected which was great and once over all we had to do was turn around and walk up a bit to face the stage for Skillet.
I didn't realize how much i loved them until the day before. And even more so here after. They played two songs and on the third..... the sound cut off. They were fixing it for about 30 minutes or so. I was disappointed and thinking they wouldn't finish the set but they did! And with added songs to make up for it. It was the last tour date of a tour that's been going on since January! So john was pretty happy to end it all with a BANG!
Their stage setup was the best I've ever seen, Angie begged to differ but they were just so great. Smoke, screens behind them showing lyrics and very well animated videos/ videos. And even a staircase type thing that had them moving up and down! Twas insane.
Near the end an introduction to one of the songs sent chills down my spine and gave me goosebumps.
Although i cannot recall the name of the song, I do know it was about suicide (prevention) and it just touched me. As some of you may know Skillet is a christian band... And they preached a little too which was a little awkward for me i tend to hide my religion. And i enjoyed this part far more than i lead on. This un explainable out of body experience started to come over me and i honestly haven't stopped thinking about it. My life has changed measurably since becoming closer too my best friend, Whom led me closer to god? Along with her wonderful family of course. I no longer felt pressured into it. Or as if i was doing it only to fit in with them... I was doing it because i wanted it. And my life hasn't been the same. I realized how extremely grateful i am, And how great this year really has been so far.
I wasn't in the best of places last year and i can't believe i was ever able to be pulled out of it. I am nowhere near the follower i should be, i'm a sheep that's gone astray and tends to do her own thing too often and skillet reminded me that i need to take a second to think about how far I've come. Enough to lead me back. Enough to start wearing my love for god on my sleeve. But i don't think i'll ever really get there. I lost my sense of faith, and i'm strong willed. I like to do my own thing. But i do owe my life to him. I mean it. When looking back I see that he gave me life and hope again. And hopefully it lasts. I'm still just looking for something to put my faith back in. And if that means i end up deciding to become a (better) christian so be it. I did my best to save the verse they had shared (Isaiah 53 something..) and i was edger to cross check it/ look it up the first chance i had gotten!.... which ended up being just after Angie had left the next day. totally put me back in my place. I was going strong for a good while, but once again i went back to sorrow and back to leading my life the way I WANTED. i'm rambling again... Oops.
Kind of got off track here, the point was that I was surrounded by people who were feeling the same because this band in front of us was fearless enough to wear their religion on their sleeves and proudly. That's so amazing to me. I'd see them again in a heartbeat and I in fact hope to.
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My photos aren't all that great cause i used my phone the whole time. I usually just give angie my shizz and go without a bag or anything, Which is nice. EXPECT THIS TIME.... Cause she still has my credit card haha. I'm a broke basic bitch for the week, Or until i see her again.
Subject change! I also finally had the opportunity to see the ReVamped beetle-juice show. And i was so excited about it, but it was kind of a let down. They just changed it to Beetlejuice's mashup. and it's so 2014 i wanted to puke. Which is probably exactly what they were going for to be honest. The costumes were tacky and trashy and boobs just boobs. Yes lotsa boobs. Not that i'd complain about boobs (; hehe. I never got the chance to see the older show but i wish i could have. In fact i might check YouTube. I'd have love the old cheesy costumes and songs. Don't get me wrong the show was still great, I was singing and dancing along the whole time. I was just upset at how modern they made it. Kinda felt like they sold out and went for a hhn (Halloween horror nights) Bill and ted's show kind of feel. The songs weren't bad just felt like they A took it too far and B focused on Frankenstein too much. Who looked so bad, the hair the makeup the outfit everything iiiiiccckkkk! I don't get why i'm so biased about this. But i just dislike the directions they took with the show. Thus being said i'd still totally go see it again tho! And i'm hoping to be seeing the rocky horror next weekend. ;D which i've been wanting to do FOR SO LONG. i became obsessed after seeing the small show hhn did last year. So if you're interested be on the lookout for that. If it happens i'll be sure to talk too much about it. As usual if you made it this far into my post, I kind of love you. Thanks so much! ~Chyster
^that's what they should still look like *shakes head*..... I'll add photos of the show later.My phone is being stupid. and won't email them to myself. I'm frustrated and want this posted soooooo yeah.
We had great spots for the parade and caught more beads than expected which was great and once over all we had to do was turn around and walk up a bit to face the stage for Skillet.
I didn't realize how much i loved them until the day before. And even more so here after. They played two songs and on the third..... the sound cut off. They were fixing it for about 30 minutes or so. I was disappointed and thinking they wouldn't finish the set but they did! And with added songs to make up for it. It was the last tour date of a tour that's been going on since January! So john was pretty happy to end it all with a BANG!
Their stage setup was the best I've ever seen, Angie begged to differ but they were just so great. Smoke, screens behind them showing lyrics and very well animated videos/ videos. And even a staircase type thing that had them moving up and down! Twas insane.
Near the end an introduction to one of the songs sent chills down my spine and gave me goosebumps.
Although i cannot recall the name of the song, I do know it was about suicide (prevention) and it just touched me. As some of you may know Skillet is a christian band... And they preached a little too which was a little awkward for me i tend to hide my religion. And i enjoyed this part far more than i lead on. This un explainable out of body experience started to come over me and i honestly haven't stopped thinking about it. My life has changed measurably since becoming closer too my best friend, Whom led me closer to god? Along with her wonderful family of course. I no longer felt pressured into it. Or as if i was doing it only to fit in with them... I was doing it because i wanted it. And my life hasn't been the same. I realized how extremely grateful i am, And how great this year really has been so far.
I wasn't in the best of places last year and i can't believe i was ever able to be pulled out of it. I am nowhere near the follower i should be, i'm a sheep that's gone astray and tends to do her own thing too often and skillet reminded me that i need to take a second to think about how far I've come. Enough to lead me back. Enough to start wearing my love for god on my sleeve. But i don't think i'll ever really get there. I lost my sense of faith, and i'm strong willed. I like to do my own thing. But i do owe my life to him. I mean it. When looking back I see that he gave me life and hope again. And hopefully it lasts. I'm still just looking for something to put my faith back in. And if that means i end up deciding to become a (better) christian so be it. I did my best to save the verse they had shared (Isaiah 53 something..) and i was edger to cross check it/ look it up the first chance i had gotten!.... which ended up being just after Angie had left the next day. totally put me back in my place. I was going strong for a good while, but once again i went back to sorrow and back to leading my life the way I WANTED. i'm rambling again... Oops.
Kind of got off track here, the point was that I was surrounded by people who were feeling the same because this band in front of us was fearless enough to wear their religion on their sleeves and proudly. That's so amazing to me. I'd see them again in a heartbeat and I in fact hope to.
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| Derpin, But proud of our beads. |
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| see the pedestal type things! so cool. |
My photos aren't all that great cause i used my phone the whole time. I usually just give angie my shizz and go without a bag or anything, Which is nice. EXPECT THIS TIME.... Cause she still has my credit card haha. I'm a broke basic bitch for the week, Or until i see her again. Subject change! I also finally had the opportunity to see the ReVamped beetle-juice show. And i was so excited about it, but it was kind of a let down. They just changed it to Beetlejuice's mashup. and it's so 2014 i wanted to puke. Which is probably exactly what they were going for to be honest. The costumes were tacky and trashy and boobs just boobs. Yes lotsa boobs. Not that i'd complain about boobs (; hehe. I never got the chance to see the older show but i wish i could have. In fact i might check YouTube. I'd have love the old cheesy costumes and songs. Don't get me wrong the show was still great, I was singing and dancing along the whole time. I was just upset at how modern they made it. Kinda felt like they sold out and went for a hhn (Halloween horror nights) Bill and ted's show kind of feel. The songs weren't bad just felt like they A took it too far and B focused on Frankenstein too much. Who looked so bad, the hair the makeup the outfit everything iiiiiccckkkk! I don't get why i'm so biased about this. But i just dislike the directions they took with the show. Thus being said i'd still totally go see it again tho! And i'm hoping to be seeing the rocky horror next weekend. ;D which i've been wanting to do FOR SO LONG. i became obsessed after seeing the small show hhn did last year. So if you're interested be on the lookout for that. If it happens i'll be sure to talk too much about it. As usual if you made it this far into my post, I kind of love you. Thanks so much! ~Chyster
^that's what they should still look like *shakes head*..... I'll add photos of the show later.My phone is being stupid. and won't email them to myself. I'm frustrated and want this posted soooooo yeah.
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| Dinner haha. |
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| We're cute~ |
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