Welcome to Rockville Post one. (Photos and actual posts to come later.... this is just i don't even know)

This weekend is full of things to keep to myself, But i also have that if i don't write about it and photograph it i'll forget it all one day.... I need to get over this mentality. Because in reality it keeps me from enjoying the moment. I spent my weekend focusing on photos and how to write about it all that when it finally came time to write... I had nothing.

Nothing comes out but spurs of memories and moments from my weekend. Welcome to RockVille was so great. I am so happy to have survived it. Believe me it was brutal and i caught myself thinking if this is anything like hell, it might not be such a bad place to end up after all. The sun and heat was deadly. And the crowds were insane. But the bands oh they were so worth it. Although my dad tended to ruin the bigger bands for me by talking..... It was still such a breathtaking moment to see bands I've been listening to since i can remember. I actually wanted to cry because i was so mad Rob zombie didn't play dragula But he came back out and ended it with it. Which was just so aaaaahhh. I felt so infinite this weekend i'm having troubles being able to sum it all up into words.

I also cried during stained AGAIN, But this time because i've come so far since the first time i saw them. I'm not that selfish sad naive girl anymore. And I never ever want to see her again. She wasn't me. She was just lost and bands pulled her out of it. Honestly they did. I cried back then, I cried this weekend and i'll probably cry thinking about it if i ever see them again. It's just I can't say enough how grateful i am for my life. Or how far i've come, And how great this year has been for me..... gonna stop there.

I met some great people, Half of which i didn't even catch the names of. And the odds of ever seeing them again aren't in our favor. Which is fine. Although i wouldn't mind seeing them again.  I was talkative and happy. I'm starting to feel alive. Starting to feel like a different person. Or as if the older me i thought i'd never be again is coming back. Music is what is keeping me alive. The amounts of people surrounding me, The feelings, the sounds, the pains, the feeling when you're so dead and lifeless but the band comes on and in a second you feel nothing but the energy and happiness of everyone around you. The pain slips away and you're energetic and screaming at the top of your lungs. I Stay alive for those feelings.  By the time korn came on the second day my feet felt like i was walking on needles, my skin was stinging all over and i felt like passing out multiple times that day.... But as i stood there i gave them all i had left in me. Even if i was in the back. Even with my dad talking in my ear. Even with my best friend sitting down not caring at all. I wouldn't change it. I wish the feeling could be bottled up and saved for those melancholy days where i'm laying in bed wishing for sleep or for when i'm so annoyed with everyone around me.

Honestly the best part of the weekend was probably the ending.
 But an ending truly is just another beginning. The radio was blasting, So loud you could feel it in your bones.
I couldn't even care how dead i felt, or that my head was pounding. Or that traffic was horrible. Or that we were that loud car everyone including me always hates.
I sang anyway. I remember driving over the blue bridge wishing i could stand up sticking my arms and head out of the roof of the car.
I felt like my favorite book character Charlie from the perks of being a wall flower. I saw myself as him.
And for a moment i swore i knew how he felt when he said "I feel infinite".....

The Decade Tour, march 9th 2014.

There's so much to write i don't even know where to start, But I've gotta start somewhere right? Might as well make it the beginning
The tour was in Jacksonville and on my dads birthday so i thought no way in hell i'm going... But I wouldn't give up. And well here we are two days after. The drive was rocky we went to the wrong venue. But i used the GPS on my phone and we were at the right place in 20 mins tops. Sooooo, No biggie.


We got there and the doors were unlocked. And there wasn't a box office.  So my dad being well my dad walked right in. And i'll be damned the manager let us wait inside the venue. It was so, So, SO weird and amazing for me. We started off in the first room which was no big deal to  be in i mean it was cool and all but we were out of the way so i could see why they would't mind. Later moved on into the main stage room to creep and watch set up.... I WAS FREAKING OUT. Ya know on the inside. (; Until Shawn Milke walked by.....  Because at that point i uh i lost it. Just ask my dad. i kept hitting his leg and uh kept whispering things.

My first VIP experience was so worth it. Not only did it come with a meet and greet that was so fantastic, But a tee shirt vip lanyards a poster and dog tags... The meet and greet alone would've been worth it honestly. Not that i'd really have needed it all the dudes expect Dennis came back out after the show..But anyways, All the Alesana dudes were so down to earth and amazing. I'll never EVER forget talking to them. Jake and Shawn mostly. i spent more time with them than i could've ever imagined or dreamed up.

There were two Local opening Bands, Both of which deserve some recognition. Abolish the relics and Blessing a curse.  I wasn't expecting them to be there nor was i expecting them to be any good but i was wrong. They both had great unique sounds and put on a great show. Defiantly got my energy up and made me start to feel alive again. Although i was pretty hyped up already due to such a great few hours of fangilring on the inside. I mean let's face it, i watched fare well my love get ready and Shawn Milke walked passed me before he was "supposed" to. My dad deserves a few pats on the back for getting me inside so easily and early. Hoping to return to the megaplex Rocbar soon because it was a down to earth rad feeling / looking bar. Next up was Megosh they opened with Black is the new blonde I was a happy panda because i knew it. Or well remembered it haha. Hands and hearts were so great too. Let's just say i'm now a fan of ALL THE BANDS that are on the tour. including the Jacksonville local openers. and i'm happy to have new music to swoon over. I know all the dudes in farewell my love.... yet i only knew one song "mirror mirror" Ooops? but being barrier front and center helped me practice my lip singing... bwhaha. Get scared and Alesana kiled it. I was screaming and jumping the whole time. No wonder why i'm so sick now. I've been running away from this sickness all week it seems and it caught up to me the day after the show sadly.

I brought sour patch kids and reese's to Johnny In get scared Ran right upto him the first time he walked in during set up. He was busy but i asked him if he had a second... His reply? Maybe two seconds?  So adorbz. But point is all the boys made me feel guilty for leaving them out and now next time i see them i'm bringing enough spk's for an army. bwhaha. I got a group photo WITH ALL OF THEM. Which made me so freaking happy. Joked around with them  for awhile and even learned a few things from lloyed and loghan (fare well my love) and just ugh Take me back. I miss it. So much already. I became a totally different person by the end of the night. I was able to open up and actually TALK to people. Anyways,

At the end of the night we waited around because Jake was gonna drink with my dad for his birthday and although it never happened sadly...The conversation i stood in on between the boys was worth it. Jake was pretty blah at the end of the night and started having a sentimental moment about how much the band meant to him and that they were like family to him. Their band manager even came over with Melissa (Shawn's sister, Guest vocals for some alesana songs, and the managers partner)  on skype for a moment and i awkwardly hid behind them while they talked. ahaha it was funny. Made me feel a tad creepy and annoying but hey they didn't mind. I feel like i should shut up now... But there's still so much to tell. My dad was able to help me get at least one pic from each band..... and even Alesana's drum stick. :3 And there's still so much running through my head to talk about. Lets not even go into how energetic my dad was... he kept shouting and at one point dennis reacted on stage and i lost it...  Also sang this conversation is over with dennis shoving the mic in my face.... xD i wanted to cry. Not even kidding. Anyways...
So uh let's add photos shall i? Sorry none of these are really all that great photography wise. Hope you won't mind.

A pic from EVERY BAND. c; 

Farewell my love... I'm wearing loghans hat WOOP!

Picture of a picture happening... It sucked but i finally got a good one ahah

HE'S COOLER THAN ME. i am so jealous. Props to Miranda Eliot for the photo of my dad. It has 51 notes on tumblr...  

Ryan howell, Frewell my love. 

dennis lee..

i effing loved their couches. 

Shawn milke

Had so much fun with the boys Can't wait to see them again soon.

Fail sail, selfie style. 

I really wish i could remember what other band he recommended. I fell in love with MAE. ):  I'm really happy with how much we talked. i honestly can't get over it.

My dad looks dumb. XD 

Johnny Boy ^_^

Covered in dennis lee's spit, Which was mostly beer. I aint even mad. 

He gave me a Megosh button~!!! 

Jake! and the neverland pirate d:

Dorks.

My dads a creep and for once that's ok! yay~

I'll end with PS post concert depression is a bitch.

Are you ready for this! Finally a WelcomeToRockville post....! Probably the first of a few. So keep your eyes peeled.

As i sit here listening to Asking Alexandria I came to the realization i never posted about WTR oops. 

Believe it or not it all started with a bad attitude and a restless basically sleepless night.

 I thought once i got there things would change but sadly i was mistaken. It was my first concert "alone" pretty much i mean sure i had my dad and his friend there but they didn't help much if anything they just added to my bad mood and to the loneliness. It was a good day Great day even don't get me wrong but damn i wish it was better. 

once we got there and finally got in i was a little lost because the stages i was looking for weren't where i expected them to be, but i guess that's normal for a venue I've never been to before. It was actually a really nice well spaced out place, and both main stages were next to each other so it made it much easier to race to a good spot between set times. After getting into place for AA (asking Alexandria) I realized a band i had never heard of before would be going on before them. In this moment And to my surprise they were actually quite good. They've definitely Gained a new fan. And i got some good pictures so that's a plus!! 

Although i was eager for AA  to come on after seeing Danny peaking out from side stage i still really enjoyed in this moments set. AA was FANTASTIC i was close, got good shots, and even got to fan girl a little hehehe. Sadly i started to get extremely light headed and dizzy and it got to the point where i couldn't bear it any longer and had to get the hell out of there and quick... Which depressed me because they were my favorite of the day and i had really been enjoying finally getting to see one of my favorite bands live. My dad annoyed me a little after this happened but he bought me cheese fries and a snow cone which totally made up for it. Oh how he knows me all to well. He brought me things he knew i couldn't refuse...

Luckily for me after feeling better i had learned one of my friends was also there and i was able to find her THANK GOD because i was dying concerts kind of suck when alone and my bad mood just made it all worse... After meeting up with my friend they day got better and was enjoyable. Not that AA and all of the other things were bad or un enjoyable... things just got better once not alone. 

Seeing three day's grace without Adam kind of reeked havoc on my heart and soul. I don't like change all that much and believe me, That was a big BIG change. I hated it haaaaaaatttteeeeeeeeeeed it. But after getting home and researching/ watching live videos of Matt with 3dg (three day's grace) I realized that i was just butt hurt over everything and that Matt really was a good fit for the band. Even though it's a big change it's a good change i now believe. 

Okay Okay enough babbling...  

Here's a few of the pictures I've decided were good so far.

And believe me there will be another post because i have over 300 pictures,

 and couldn't bare to delete most of them. 

Maria Brink In this moment 

In this moment Bassist 

Cameron  Asking Alexandria 

 Danny worsnop Asking Alexandria as well. You thinkin what i'm thinkin!? ;D eheheheehe....

Ben Bruce, Also Asking Alexandria

Jacoby Shaddix  papa roach. 

Ben Bruce again... Phone picture One of the many MANY good phone pictures i was able to get.

Maria brinks IN this moment again Also a picture taken on my phone..

 And one last Ben Bruce picture.... Last but Not least. <3